I’m sitting here in front of the computer typing away and back spacing.. typing again and back spacing.. somewhat constipated because I want to express the things I’ve accomplished but mostly because of the things I need to do next. But what do I need to do next? Where should I begin? The old adage of “when one thing ends, something else begins” is a stage I think I’m at right now.
So what have I accomplished?
Since being laid-off, the first thing I wanted to do was to find a yoga teacher training school. 5 info sessions later, I found Indigo Yoga at Vancouver School of Body Massage. Dan, my teacher had an open source approach to his teaching thereby allowing us to freely play and learn about all different styles of yoga.
I was then approached with my first private student, Mike, who allowed me to teach him my passion and showed him what he was capable of doing.. he was 6 foot 7.. and balancing on one leg in tree and warrior III poses. Amazing!
I was also opened up with the opportunity to teach Karma classes. My better half cleared out a room for me so I could teach there once a week. I could only fit a few people at a time in the room but I certainly learned alot about the potential and got to work with different body types and levels.
Next came the egg or the chicken. I was looking into finding a bigger space to teach near my area and also looking for more opportunities to teach. I met a Jiu-Jitsu instructor who’s studio was so close I had to go check out the potential. At the same time, I found a government assisted self employment program that offered skills in business plan writing and business set up.. another opportunity I could not resist.
A short time later, I sealed the deal in renting the Martial Arts studio 3x a week and I got into the self employment program. The birth of Beautiful Om Yoga has emerged.
Time flew by so quickly I can barely believe I am but 2 months away from a one year anniversary of what was a life transitioning pivot point in my life.. we got the laid off notice from eBay. A year ago, I was contemplating on how I should transition my way out of the corporate world and work in another area along with getting a p/t gig to teach yoga. It seems almost surreal that I am in a full time position to teach and have already started my business. CRAZY!
Honestly, if I wasn’t as passionate, and as my better half would say, if yoga wasn’t my first love, I would not have been able to accomplish what I have today. NEVER! And boy, no pun intended 
, I look back at how much time and effort placed on each activity, how much dedication it requires, how much research, support from family, friends and loved ones, today’s milestone IS something I should be proud of. Although I can be as critical and my own worse enemy in many ways, I do need to give myself a little credit for these achievements.
The last few weeks have been a huge stretch for me. Not a big red easy button for sure. I was playing catch up and the more I struggled, the worse it got. I felt like I was caught in a turnado and I couldn’t get out. I questioned if I made the right decisions in renting this studio and starting the business during the Olympics. I questioned if I should have gotten into the program now or should I have waited till later on the year. I felt exhausted from the seminars that seem to drag on forever and not being able to go talk to more people. I questioned if I was spending enough time on planning and research and what I could have done differently. I stressed about filing for taxes and how it should be done.
In the end, I resolved to let it all go and took a nice long nap. Even though my mind was still racing as I was resting, I somehow convinced myself that there’s nothing more I can do but just let it be. And with that, I think I found my inner space.
I think I just pressed a release button.
